When Home No Longer Feels Safe

What comes to mind when you think of safety? Comfort, freedom from danger, feeling secure, being unharmed, feeling protected, having a sense of trust, peace houseand sanctuary may be some words associated with safety.

Maybe there has been a time when you’ve felt unsafe. Perhaps there was a sense that your life was somehow in danger or you felt distrustful toward someone because of the way they were behaving. Maybe it was something that seemed minor but a “red flag” went up in your mind that something didn’t feel “right.”

Unfortunately, for survivors of domestic and sexual violence, the sense of safety becomes diminished through the violating behaviors of the abusers. Violating, abusive behavior might be physical, emotional/verbal, or sexual in nature and is typically used to exert control over another person. Whether a violation happens once or multiple times, a victim’s sense of safety changes.

The often traumatic violations affect how you view yourself, the people around you, and the world in general. It becomes difficult to feel comfortable and safe in your own home. Many victims are also often isolated by the abusers so social supports are unavailable as safe connections to reach out to.

Survivors become masterful at observing other people in an effort to stay safe. You remain in a heightened state of alertness as you try to meet your partner’s (often confusing) demands. You become acutely aware of your partner’s behaviors and moods. You may find yourself asking How did they seem when they got home or woke up in the morning? Are they slamming the door? Do they seem calm? Do they seem too calm? Did they have a good day? Have they been out drinking? Was dinner okay? Did they get home late again? Are the kids being too loud? All of the questions running through your mind seem to be related to one larger concern: Am I safe? The thinking tends to be that if you can identify or predict your partner’s behaviors, moods, or mannerisms, you can stay safe by knowing how to respond accordingly and attempt to prevent a blow-up. The intention of this skill of observation is to keep you safe but can lead to feeling anxious and exhausted.

Anxiety arises as you attempt to please a partner who never seems to be satisfied. You come to believe that you are not enough for your partner. You often second-guess yourself and your decisions because your partner tells you whatever you did wasn’t enough, was done wrong, wasn’t what they wanted, or call you a degrading name for trying to do anything at all.

It’s hard to feel safe if you feel anxious, concerned, worried, or scared most of the time. Even if the abusive relationship has ended, you may find you still remain in that constant state of readiness; ready to meet someone else’s needs; ready to be the peace-keeper; ready to do whatever it takes to keep another person from harming you, your children, or your pets.

If you have been violated in some way by an abuser, it’s important to know that it’s not your fault and that you deserve to live a life in comfort, free from danger, with a sense of security, and without fear of being harmed. You can click here to download my free booklet on abuse and safety planning or call the National Coalition Against Domestic Violence Hotline at 1-800-799-SAFE (7233). If you want to learn some ways to identify abuse or take action you can read my blog here. What does safety mean to you? When do you feel most safe? What does safety look and feel like to you?


Inspired by a prompt from~ Safety First~

The Black Dot Campaign: 10 Other Ways to Support Domestic Violence Survivors

I recently noticed a post being shared on Facebook for a campaign involving victims of domestic violence (DV) and a “Black Dot.” The black dot is supposed to be a symbol that victims of DV can draw on the palm of their hand to let professionals and others know they are involved with domestic violence but are unable to ask for help because the abuser is watching their every move. Theblackdot Black Dot Campaign encourages everyone to post a picture of a black dot on his or her palm to show support for domestic violence survivors.

Campaigns to raise awareness about DV can be great. They create conversations, inspire blog posts, and draw attention to important social problems. On the other hand, some of them can also create the illusion that they are official programs, insinuate that professionals are trained and aware of the campaign, or even put survivors at risk for more abuse. While the Black Dot is intended to be a silent way for survivors to communicate their abuse, it may cause more abuse if discovered by the perpetrator. Survivors who try to use the Black Dot may attempt to show everyone their secret dot and then wonder why no one is responding to it or offering help. People who see it, might not have a clue what it is, what it means, or know what to do if they do recognize that the person needs help. As a provider who works with DV survivors, I think the campaign is a great start to creating discussion about domestic violence but I also think it is currently an unreliable method for helping people affected by abuse.

There are often a number of warning signs that can indicate someone is being abused in their relationship. Although a single sign may not indicate abuse, multiple “red flags” may suggest abusive behavior is going on. Here are eight ways to recognize abuse and ten ideas about how to help if you suspect or know that abuse is happening.

8 Signs of an Abusive Relationship:

  1. A person seems withdrawn and misses work or socializes with friends and family less often
  2. A person has a partner who seems unusually jealous or suspicious of the person’s behavior
  3. A person’s partner regularly criticizes, puts them down, or humiliates them around others
  4. A person seems unable to be away from the partner without receiving unending texts or phone calls that seem to be checking on or monitoring the person
  5. Obvious physical injuries including black eyes, bruising (especially around the neck or wrists), or broken bones that don’t seem to fit with the person’s description of how the injury occurred
  6. One partner does most of the talking and the other person seems nervous about saying anything in the presence of the partner
  7. A person expresses fear or says they don’t feel safe going home to their partner
  8. A person makes excuses for the aggressive, suspicious, abusive behavior of the other person

10 Things you can do if you suspect or become aware that someone is being abused:

  1. Offer to help the person get connected with local services, such as a crisis center or a local domestic violence agency which can help them with things from basic needs to protection orders.
  2. Offer to create a safety plan with the person. This might involve offering to keep an emergency bag for the person. Emergency bags contain copies of important documents like birth certificates and protection orders as well as emergency cash and extra clothing. The bags can be useful if the person decides to flee quickly.
  3. Offer to go with the person to appointments such as to court, to meet with police, to the hospital, or to the attorney’s office.
  4. Offer to watch the person’s children while they attend appointments.
  5. Offer to provide transportation to run errands or to attend appointments. Many DV survivors I’ve worked with have been isolated and are left without transportation during the day while a partner or spouse is away.
  6. Share your concern about the person’s safety and let the person know you’re there for support if needed
  7. Be aware that confronting the abuser could make things worse for the survivor; always keep the survivor’s safety in mind when attempting to help.
  8. Don’t provide unwanted help or try to rescue an adult DV survivor. Allow survivors to make their own choices about what they want to do and respect their decisions.
  9. Be aware that leaving a domestic violence situation is the most dangerous time for survivors and that there may be a variety of reasons why survivors stay in the relationship.
  10. Report child abuse. If you suspect or know that a child is being abused, report it by calling local law enforcement, statewide hotlines, or local CPS services.

What are your thoughts on the Black Dot Campaign? If you’re a DV survivor what things were most helpful to you during or after the abusive relationship? How did you tell others about the abuse?

Abusive Relationships Booklet

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Click on the booklet link above to view a PDF file and learn about the abuse cycle, different forms of abuse, how abuse might affect victims and their children, how survivors may cope in healthy ways during and after an abusive relationship, five qualities found in healthy relationships, and some tips for safety planning in an unhealthy or abusive relationship. There are areas for reflection and journaling in each section.